life update, Weight Loss

Back on Track, Finally.

So, its been about three months since I last updated here and its fair to say that all the predictions I made and plans I put forth in my last post, didn’t happen. I stuck to the plan and kept losing weight for a few weeks, then in may, I kept putting on and losing the same three pounds. So, my desire to keep going was at a low, then at the end of June, the wheels fell off. I had put on eight and a half pounds in three weeks and then at that point, I gave up completely. I didn’t weigh myself or stick to plan or do anything really for four or five weeks.

So, I decided on Monday it was more than time for me to get back on track and stop eating so much crap that was making me feel like crap, but worse than that, was constantly triggering both my gallbladder and my eczema. So, I bit the bullet and got back on the scales and much to my shock and delight, found out that I’d stayed the same.

Which currently leaves me two pounds lighter than I was when I started with WW at the start of April. Now, having said that, I am still twenty pounds lighter than I was at my heaviest and that, I am proud about.

So, in the air of turning over a new leaf, as we are no longer gym members (as we were paying for it and not using it) I have made exercise a priority this week. I’m not going crazy with it. I realise at the minute my fitness level is low, so I’ve been walking. Tuesday I went for a walk after dinner because it was a beautiful night, and we walked about three miles. Yesterday, I went for a walk mid-morning, and it was a beautiful walk but by the time I got home, I was drenched with sweat as it was a hot day. A cool shower and a change of clothes and that was me sorted.

I’m back to eating three meals a day, and after three days, I can definitely feel the difference in my energy levels. Another thing that’s helping me is that the scales are out of sight in the bathroom. I know where they are but if I don’t see them, I don’t think about them. My aim is to only weigh myself once a week, on a monday. Nothing more, before I was weighing myself everyday which isn’t helpful, as everyone’s weight naturally fluctuates during the week. So, I’ll do my best this week and see what the result brings on Monday. Got plans to go for a walk tonight before dinner and tomorrow during the day, weather permitting.

I’m feeling happier than I have for a while, now that I’m actively trying to get a handle on my health again. No big plans, this is a slow and steady marathon. I have a long, LONG, way to go before I get to my goal, whatever that’s going to be. At the minute I have no idea what that’s going to be, i’m going to let how I feel in my body be the guide, not the weight on the scale. I’ve given myself until my 40th birthday to lose as much of this weight as I can, which as of today is 2 years and 2 and a half months away. So plenty of time to lose weight and get fit.

Gym Life, Weight Loss

Weight Loss, Gym Life and Hellboy, oh my!

So, I had my weekly weigh in yesterday, and I’ve lost another 2 and a half pounds which takes my total lost in 2 weeks to seven pounds which I am very, very happy with. That also takes the amount of weight I’ve lost since Feb 2018 to 24 lbs, (Or 1 stone 10 lbs, or 10.8 kilos.)

I was supposed to have my induction to the gym yesterday, but my mum has issues with her back, and it was really sore, so we rescheduled it for this morning. Just in time to get a message from my friend, asking if I wanted to go to Frankie & Benny’s and to the cinema to see Hellboy with her and her son. Which I jumped at. The food was delicious, and I ordered Macaroni Cheese with a wince (and my fingers crossed, but today I’m fine, no issues with my gallbladder whatsoever). I didn’t really think about points, if I’m being honest, I just ordered what I really wanted, something I hadn’t had in months. Also, having a treat once in a blue moon isn’t going to ruin my life, so I just drew a line under it and went on.

We went to see Hellboy, and as vue has changed their prices, it now only costs me £5, which is an added bonus. As to the actual film itself, eh, it wasn’t bad. I’m not a film critic, nor am I a snob when it comes to films. I really enjoyed the Guillermo Del Toro version, and to me, the remake doesn’t have the same feel, or the same magic, but it was okay. Not overwhelmingly brilliant, but I wasn’t bored.

I went to the gym this morning for my induction, took about 25 minutes. Nothing terribly exciting, if you’ve been to one gym, pretty much they’re all the same. I wanted to stay and get a workout in but mum had other plans, so we just left after our induction. We’re going in the morning, not sure what time. If mum wants to swim when I go to the gym, then its going to be an eight o’clock start at the gym as the kids are on holidays this week and from 9.30 onward, the swimming pool is busy all day. If she just wants to go to the gym, then it’ll be later. Honestly, I’m not bothered what time we go, we’ll probably walk there and then get my dad to give us a lift back. Once I’ve been going to the gym a while and built up my fitness and stamina I’ll start walking back from the gym as that’s what I used to do, walk there and back.

I’m looking forward to getting on with my workouts and start going to the gym more often. Being unemployed, I can go the gym whatever time suits me, and that means that I can avoid the busy times as much as possible. I’m aiming to go three times a week to start with, the last thing I want to do is go too hard too fast and end up injuring myself.

life update, Weight Loss

Going down the right road.

So, I weighed in on Monday, and I had lost four and a half pounds my first week on WW. I was over the moon, and still am, to be honest. I didn’t feel hungry, I felt in total control of what I was eating and what I was doing, and if I had questions or needed something checked, the app is a life saver. It has bar code scanning built in (which isn’t 100% but works 85% of the time, it obviously can’t have every item of food ever made on there) and that’s been a big help too. For me, its either a case of ‘x product is really low in points, oooh, i’m having that’ or ‘they want what? Nope, not doing it.’

I tend to think about my points as money, I always have. This may sound odd, but bear with me. I get 29 points a day, so if I look at a sauce to go over some pasta and its 18 points for a jar, I’m not going to spend 18 of the 29 I’ve got for the whole day on one thing. That doesn’t make sense. For that amount of points, I could make an entire meal, and have a yoghurt for pudding. So, the lower the points, the less I have to spend, the more likely I am to go with it. Having said that, if I really want something and its higher in points, I’ll have it and work it out, that’s the beauty of the program, at least for me.

Another level of awkwardness to the whole thing is that I am completely dairy free. So it makes copying recipes somewhat complicated because, in my experience, dairy free cheese doesn’t react the same as ‘normal’ cheese, when it comes to melting and stuff. And I’m not going to lie, I really really REALLY miss my usual strong mature cheddar. Unfortunately, even after I get my gall bladder out, whenever that will be, I still have to go light on the dairy because my eczema is triggered by dairy. Sigh. My life is so much fun right now.

I’m slowly trying to build up my fitness and go at least three times a week for a walk. This week, I’ll be honest, bar walking around town yesterday, I haven’t done any major exercise, I am absolutely choked with the cold, feeling disgusting and have zero energy. So, for right now, I’m a slug sat on my chair with my laptop. I’ve got an appointment tomorrow afternoon so I’m going to at least try to walk one way, which is about half an hour walk, so that’ll help exercise-wise. I’m struggling today because I genuinely have no appetite but I need to eat so that I can take painkillers.

So, I’ll aim to write again later this week, I’m trying as hard as I can to keep up the two to three times a week schedule I’ve set for myself.

life update, Weight Loss

A Fork In The Road

It seems like every year I renew my blog, ready to be a more prolific writer and be organised and post here often. And then, I go months without posting anything. This is something I want to change. In fact, there’s a lot of things I want to change.

One of the more recent changes I made on Sunday (31/3/19) I decided to stop going to Slimming World and go back to Weight Watchers. I tried SW for 12 weeks, which is what I’d agreed with my mum when I started. I got on fine over the first few weeks but then, in a familiar pattern, I fall out of love with the program.

It’s not a dig at SW, its a good program and is helping a lot of people meet their goals and live healthy lives, it just wasn’t a good fit for me. Weight Watchers, or WW, as its been re-branded, works for me. I know this program, I know what I’m doing, and best of all, I’m comfortable.

I still have the same determination to lose weight. I don’t want to do any more damage to my body than I have already. I’m 37, and I’ve been overweight for the majority of my life up to this point. Well, no more. No more struggling to breathe walking a steep hill, having sore knees and hips and permanent back ache.

That’s not even mentioning the health benefits of my losing weight. I have an under-active thyroid and Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome, both of which would be improved by my losing even 10% of my body weight. I also have chronic depression, which is a entire situation all by itself, but for right now is being managed very well.

Also, over the past couple of years I’ve had recurring issues with my gallbladder. I’ve been back and forward to the doctor and a few weeks ago, I had an endoscopy, as the surgeon wanted to find out if my symptoms could be being caused by an ulcer. It wasn’t, and I’ve got an appointment at the end of this month to see him again, to hopefully get my operation scheduled. Or, being more realistic since this is the NHS, get onto the waiting list for my operation. Apparently the area I live in has a large waiting list for gallbladder operations and I’m being unemployed and mostly broke, I’m not in the position to go private for my operation.

So, I am currently on day four of my first week, and I’m feeling good. I’m actually back to eating three meals a day, I need to work on not eating so much carbs, in terms of pasta and bread, and figuring out what to eat instead. And, I need to eat more salad and veg. Which again, not a chore, love veg, as long as no one asks me to eat either sprouts or cauliflower. I am also completely dairy free as it sets off my gall bladder, and its not worth the pain.

I’ve also discovered at 37, having had eczema since I was 6 weeks old, that dairy triggers my eczema. Something no-one had ever mentioned to me until I saw a doctor a few months ago, and she suggested it. It was when I cut dairy out of my diet due to my gallbladder that I felt the difference and even just a small bit of dairy causes the skin on the back of my hands and my lower arms to flare and feel tight and painful. As I discovered a couple of hours ago, when I had toast with soft cheese, and my hands are sore now. So, now I have to figure out if there is a non-disgusting dairy free low fat soft cheese. Just typing that makes my nose wrinkle. I hate food experiments, but unfortunately, I don’t have a choice. Its just a case of trying what’s out there until i find something that a – is palatable and b – I actually enjoy. Who knows if such a thing exists but I guess I’ll find out the next time I go shopping.

From now on, I am determined to post at least 3 times a week, and hopefully that should be easy to do. I guess we’ll see.